as you might have noticed, the site has been pretty quiet for the last few weeks and I'm sorry for that, but I've got a really good excuse. On June 3, I got to meet my newest and favrotiest fangirl and she's was and is taking up a pretty big chunk of time. That's right - I had a baby.
Her name is Tamsin - and yes, we did find inspiration for the name from Lost Girl - and she was born after 16 hours of all natural labor weighing nine pounds, seven ounces and measuring 19.75 inches. There's not a lot more to be said about her other than she really likes to eat, sometimes she lets us sleep and she's generally pretty perfect.
This is a blog about fandom and media, not parenting, but even so, becoming a parent has already had an effect on me and how I see media and fandom. One one side, there's the emotional bit. Every bit of bad news or story of bullying or sadness hits a bit harder when you're a new parent, because you're struck so strongly by the reality that the people you're hearing about were all someone's baby. Seeing stories about parents has new resonance, and nearly everything you read or see carries and undercurrent to it of "what if that were my baby? What if that happened to me, what would happen to my daughter?" It's a different, and rather exhausting, way of seeing the media and the world.
But becoming the mother of a daughter has also turned the volume up for me on many things I was already passionate about - representation and equality. When I see a story about how the Jurassic World Toys are all listed as boys toys, and all the dinosaurs that were female in the movie are listed as male on the toy boxes; it doesn't just inspire an abstract feminist rage, it make me hurt personally because my little girl has come into a world where she will be directly affected by this crap. And it inspires me more than ever to be a voice against it. Making the world a better place, even just the media landscape...well, this time, it's personal. And that's not to say I didn't take my fangirling personally before, but there is a difference between the somewhat selfish pursuit of representation for one's self, and the burning desire to make a better world for this small person you just met who is suddenly everything to you.
So. That's where I've been and where I am. This has been typed in one of the first few moments of quiet I've had n three weeks and It's been lovely. Though Tamsin has been strapped to my chest the entire time. We'll be amping up the site content now, or I'll be trying to as much as I'm able.
In the meantime, don't be calm, fangirl on.